We took Ian to see an allergist 2 weeks ago and found out that he is allergic to milk, eggs and peanuts. Since it is very difficult (not impossible) to have a milk-free diet, I decided to wean Ian at 9 months. Thank God that I was able to go 9 months.
Weaning Ian brought me some sad and unexplainable feelings. I am sure some of those feelings were caused by changing hormone levels. During those last few times, I remembered looking deeply into Ian’s innocent eyes and he would study mine. He would clutch his hands on my clothes, I did not want him to let go.
Sometimes, he would play with my hair. Sometimes, he wouldl try to reach for something further away with his stubby feet and toes. I knew I was going to miss nursing him.
Then the battle with Ian started. He refused to drink any formula for 2 days.
After that, he started accepting formula a little bit better each day.
On the bright side, I feel liberated with my diet. I had been deprived of a strong cup of coffee for 18 months. Now, I can drink latte, drink as much wine as I want and have some cheese with it too. For the past 2 days, I have also been eating bread slapped with ½ in. of peanut butter. I don’t have to lug my pump to work everyday and don’t have to sneak out and disappear in the middle of a meeting for 15 minutes. Talk about some good planning! Nonetheless, I don’t have the luxury of eating as much as I want in quantity now because my body no longer burn that extra 500 calories per day.
